:I yea.. I know ive not been drawing lately and im sorry. Ive been seriously over hauled at school since im almost leaving for collage and its been tough. a lot of things have happened in the past few months that have taken away my desire too draw.. but honestly over the last week or so ive been getting back into it~ mainly caused by new character ideas, pairings, art trades ext. so hopefully ill be drawing more :3 <3
A new year- and its gonna suck :I i really dont care for the new year.. to me its just another year in your life wasted and one step closer to the bone yard.. especially if your like me and seem to get into some sort of life-threatening situation yearly.. like falling into a sewer- gettinmg hit by a car- falling of the back of a moterbike that sort of thing :I
Despite all that im... kinda looking forward to it too- yeh leaving high school and my exams are gonna suck but i guess i gotta do it and then move on. COllage.. i can be whoever i want to be- not the tom-boy who never wears skirts or makeup like people STILL remember me as from the first year of highschool.. yeh- they say its the "Best years of your life".. yeh watever-
By best years you mean going to your first house party (about 3 months ago) your best friends gets alchohol poisoning and has to go home. BUT my phone is in her bag so i loose that. ANd then your other best friend starts to cry because shes worried.. and THEN i start to cry because i wanna go home and.. i MAY be.. EXTREAMLY drunk but that dosnt matter.. oh and to top it all off my best friends twin brother
grabed my tits-.. yeh its aukward between us now. And when i mean aukward i mean... i fucking hate him and if he comes near me he'll get a baby stopper.
But anyway i really want to make this journal to.. explain things-
like.. i guess im pretty sick of some people. Not who they are but how they act.. i know for a fact some people can relate too this-
I am one of those people who is known as the "happy joy joy" of my little group. over the internet and IRL. But.. its not completely true- im not a happy person most of the time- i just hide my real feelings behind a fake smile. This is because i guess ive never liked venting on people.. i know i have but not often- becuase.. i get vented on my a lot of people and it dosnt feel nice some o the time.. i know your helping them
but it jsut kinda makes you feel like shit too.. especially when its someone you care oh so much about and they are sad. Ive had it were ill be in a call with like.. 2 other people and ill sound fine. I remember when i was in that call and i was actually crying softly to myself.. they couldnt tell and i guess i like it like that. Becuase i know how it feels for someone close to you to be so upset that it pulls you down.
ANd i dont ever want t be that person. I try to cheer people up instead because.. i guess i kind of act towards others how i wish some people acted towards me. Its not very often i get upset but when it happens simply somone saying "im here for you" or "ill listen" is enough to cheer me up- but that dosent happen too often really~
omg xD i feel bad right now for venting but i dont to go another year without getting this off my chest~ im not sad right now im just.. spilling my guts :3
Well the last thing i wanna say is that i really do thank the people that have always been there for me. nomatter what. and i hope they know that im always there for them. As my best friend Becky once said- "Kate, your like a puppy.. always begging for food. but your so loyal." and that made me smile~ as some people may know.. i wont give up on you :'I *bro hug* becuase i know what it feels like to be alone... so despite what happend ill always be here~
if anyone has anything to say then please say it :3 im up for talking today<3 im in a lovey dovey mood<33
OH OH AND ALSO I WANNA MAKE NEW FRIENDS THIS YEAR SO PREPARE YOUR ANUS. >8D
--Livestream later-- C:
bye<33